Uphill, Downhill, Uphill

Three weeks later and I still remember how to log in to this blog site. Hurray! I must admit, though, that is not the reason why I’ve been MIA. I fell off the wagon. That’s right. I fell off the fat-melting, muscle-aching, mighty wagon of health wellness and fitness.

It started with a trip to the movie theatre to watch ‘The Greatest Showman’ which took me about five minutes to remember while typing this post. “I’ll have popcorn”, I said. I’ll have popcorn only. And then the inevitable happened. My eyes and my finger were pointing towards the big yellow M&M chocolate bag. Ah! Temptation! I gave in.

These past few days, I binged on a big bag of Nav Rattan, a delicious Indian snack introduced to me by my Indian best friend-slash-sister, 3 bars of Toblerone meant to be put in a box to be sent to the Philippines, and fun sizes of Baby Ruths and Butterfingers. Do you think it’s easy to lose weight? F*** no! Ya think I liked myself after all the sugar I consumed? I did not, but, the more I think about it, the more it weighs me down, therefore, I decide to let go.

This past 2 weeks have not been my proudest moment but I think writing about it here as part of the journey provides comfort, that no matter how much we try at times, we’ll get knocked down, but it’s on whether we stay knocked down or rise up that makes the difference. I plan to rise up from all this and begin a new day. Clean slate. So what if it weren’t the perfect two weeks? At least, I tried my best to start on January 1st but, I know I can’t forever hold on to the first week of the month as if I’ve put all the work already. It’s a continuous process and I’m okay starting all over again.